This weekend I made the following with my mom:

1) Cornbread that I can eat, made with cornmeal, sorghum flour, tapioca starch, egg replacer, maple syrup, and rice milk. And eat it I did! HAHAHHA!!! I ate it plain, then I ate it with cashew butter on it, then I ate it again, and one more time. It was phenomenal. I put it in the freezer so that I don't eat it all at once and so I don't become allergic to it and so it remains special to me. How could it not remain special? It was fucking bomb.

2) Rice noodle pie. This was pretty good, but I don't think I'll get a real craving for it anytime soon. Brown rice spaghetti noodles baked with sauteed onions, leeks, and herbs and bechamel sauce. The saucey has nutritional yeast, hemp milk, onion, garlic, sorghum flour, and egg replacer. If I had to pick a top 10 foods, or if I was the kind of nutto who thought about only eating the best food because hey we only have a limited number of meals on this planet, then this would probably not make the list. But if I really truly believed in reincarnation, then I might say, "Hey, I'll get a burger next time." You know?

3)Pumpkin waffles. Shit IS tight. Buckwheat flour, sorghum flour, millet flour, coconut milk, pumpkin puree, baking powder, and cinamminz. Pop it in the waffle maker and you've got a real life treat. Put some a that rice milk whipped cream, maple syrup, and chocolate chips on top, and I knocked off like 5 things from my FOOD IS EVIL MONSTER list. Made extras and put those guys in the freezer for a rainy day. And you know what? Waffles are off the list! I might want a pancake sometime, but I can deal without. Now I have the memory. I'll always have the memory. THEY CAN'T TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME.

I'm feeling adventurous and might try the Vegan/Gluten-Free mac n cheese from Veggie Grill. However, I beasted on some Indian food tonight (if I were a drag queen, my name would be Pakora) and am going to try to be a good little angel for a few days. I'm not trying to be perfect, just trying to be healthy and play sports with my granchildrens, you know?

I would also like:

some version of fish n chips?

Healthy veggie stir-fry with coconut aminos as a soy saucer

brown rice with cashew butter

baked apple

tuna melt/tuna on hot bread

spinach and black bean burger

date shake

milkshake

and that's all folks.

FOOD YOU EVIL MONSTER

1) bean cheese and sour cream burrito

2) chocolate chip pancakes with maple syrup (i've had them once in my life but this guy's got a craving!)

3) donuts - rainbow sprinkles with vanilla frostings

4) macaroni and cheeses

5) spaghetti and meatballs with bay cities bread

6) CORNBREAD MOTHER FUCKERS

7) hot fudge sundae and i don't even like chocolate that much! crazy!

8) pizza pizza PIZZA pizza - prob from stefano's on the promenade (cheese and white) and mulberry street (white and eggplant parm)

9) eggplant parm sandwich from bay cities with mother fucking spaghetti shoved in its butt crack

10) i forgot grilled cheese exists but yeah i'd eat that

11) milkshakes: oreo, coffee, vanilla, chocolate. i'm not picky.

12) challah with cream cheeses

13) toasted onion bagel with chive cream cheese

14) white rice and teriyaki sauce

15) scrambled eggies

16) croissant

17) egg and cheese samwich

18) english muffin with nut butter and honey, toasted and warm

19) DID I SAY CORNBREAD????

20) coleslaw with hot open face turkey sandwich

21) biscuits n gravy

22) pickles n ketchup

23) noodle kugel

24) lasagna

25) miso soup

26) kabocha tempura thing from Musha

27) just anything. like, what i really want to be able to eat is anything, so that i don't have to wish that i could eat something/be frustrated that i can't/make it a problem/have a life/not be anxious always/avoid people places and things. i just want to be NORMAL HUMAN STOMACH even if i can't be normal human person. you know?